So I can say that I have been a fan of Ryan Jamaal Davis, or Kadesh Flow, and his music for at least five years; a real cool guy that I am glad to have met on the internet and social media, and I consider him a friend, but I cannot speak for him if he considers me the same. So while this may be the first time you are reading a review from me, just know that I try to be as constructive, genuine and unbiased as possible. Heck, I am not even sure if I am human, but that is besides the point.
I have always debated whether I should write reviews for his albums and that of my friends, and the gap present in the ratio of albums reviewed to listened to keeps on expanding. I am just not interested in voicing my opinion on creations of others as much as I was years ago. There is something about this record that poses the question "if not now, when?"
It is not that the past records were not worthy of review, there just has to be an angle I can enter, or even just one song that I have a potent and unique connection with, and although songs and records past did resonate with me, this album offered me a foundation to start.
I really liked the opening eponymous acronym, in all aspects of its creation, as well as it serving as a recap or refresher for those who have yet to experience Desh's music. You can feel the anticipation in the tune, even as you hear "...working all the time now" and "all I got is moves on the mind now" with that steady and slow beat in the background. It is best described as Desh in the driver's seat anticipating the green light, ready to "Beep" his horn, and GOOO, as soon as it changes.
The next song does change the tone, and the tune that parallels the verses of Desh, Ohm-I and Creative Mind Frame is just concentrated cool. While their flows prove they have some experience in keeping others "satisfied," and this song does, even though I am aware that is not what they are referring to. That brief brass whisper during Creative Mind Frame's verse is a perfect blast of nostalgia. While Ohm-I's lines concerning his multiple consoles including PS4 and PS5( and using the word for more than one meaning) is another winner. While it was not my favorite, I did appreciate Desh's opening verse, and the authenticity of his career's effect on his personal life.
The song that convinced me to do a review was "Useless."
The self worth of a person that creates media for their career, whatever it may be, is partially dependent on what they create and their frequency of creation, to name a few factors. Even though we know that each person is more than what they create, this correlation between worth and creation is inherent; it is something that can be modified, but not completely eliminated. Especially when there is no guarantee that after the finalization of said creation that there will be compensation worthy of the time and effort spent, or that the impact one hopes they have with their art will meet expectations.
It is something that every creative person faces when they make their career based on what they create, because it is not a nine to five, and they often spend even more time than the standard set of hours with less stability. So this song hits home because I can see the struggle, regardless of me keeping my creative pursuits as side projects and not my main focus, or source of income. Especially when Desh mentions the effect this has on his relationship and on his self-image (\as expected, but it does not dilute the poignancy of the pain, especially when you want to help those you love, but cannot do everything you would like to be able to help.)
I find the sequence of the third and fourth tune to be ironic and even more poignant because after the third song and "all the feels" that came for the ride, the beat and the message of the fourth song drops them off, allowing none of the previous entities in attendance but hope; because hope was there, just buried deep.
I know most have heavier things on their mind, but I cannot help but think of John Mayer when I think of how "But Hope" begins. Listening to the opening track from his 2003 record may offer some clarity for the reference.
What better way to start the morning off then with "Whiskey in My Coffee?" It is one of my favorites when it comes to accompanying instrumentals and vibes, even though Desh does not recommend it as a practice. Trevor Turla nails the necessary notes to take this to the next level.
Although I cannot speak from experience, I can empathize with this unfortunate reality that too many people deal with. Discrimination has many faces and is inspired by a multitude of differences, which often beckon the chagrin or sadness, and/or anger and darkness. Personal reflections from Desh and The Epitome drive its effect home. The contribution that Marcus Lewis made must be acknowledged, and enriches their catalog of music they had created together so far.
The line "I smile to disarm you" is directed toward the preconceived notions and even inherent fear we may have towards another component of the human race, specifically the "black" community. This specific fear is a smaller component of agnostophobia (fear of the unknown) that resides in everyone, and what triggers the symptoms of fear is specific to each person. This may not be understood the way I intend so I will give an example: Not everyone is afraid of books, many just choose to avoid them. Not everyone is afraid of heights but they can be afraid of what could happen if they do fall.
The reason of this fear is usually due to subliminal conditioning in media and may be strengthened by opinions of the people closest to us; what do they see when they see another human being with more, or less, melanin? Racism is a two way street, and I don't need to place the actual definition in here, so I will spare the redundancy. The fact that I am having trouble finding the right words to say is telling that it is a wound that has yet to heal, and although there have been a few strides, racism is still more prevalent in the world than people want, or care to, admit ; most relationships do not even begin because some people may not like what they see, and it is not only regarding race, but that is part of it.
I was ambivalent about mentioning the song and its impact, and there is more that could be said, but I am not educated enough to say any more than I have. However, I cannot just ignore it. Racism is not going to just go away by ignorance, in fact that will only exacerbate and strengthen its hold.
This could just be me and my musical experiences, but Davis seems to sound a lot like Craig David; specifically in this track, or it is most apparent to me.
Phew! "Destiny Becomes Me" is a really engaging instrumental that is a host to some illmatic vibes, and says more in an instrumental than one may expect. It is a fabulous intermission and a nice cleanser of the emotional baggage that preceded it.
The relevance of re-dos is transcendent in "Take Backs," even if some of those "mistakes" lead to a brighter future, it does not clear the past of everything we wish we did not do. We all have the same amount of time in a day, but it can be discouraging when nothing seems to come of your efforts, or that it takes longer than expected, and there is always "should I have done it this way instead?"
The latter was indirectly asked with "What does 'making it' even mean?" There is a general association of what success entails at a basic level, but it is subjective to what someone values. Ryan Heinlein, I hear you, and your contribution is appreciated; I'm sorry, I did not know what else to say, but I could not just say nothing.
When it comes to the impact that this artist and his music has had on my life I can say that there is no way he will be forgotten, nor can I also go any farther without thanking Mega Ran; so any accusations that include "Forgot About Me" are not true. If I had not crossed paths with Mr. Jarbo on the twitterverse all those years ago, I am not sure if I would have came across Desh's music a year or two later. Also, there is nothing strange with the flow he utilizes on this track, but there is a reason he was able to record with TechN9chians. That's also not mentioning the killer keyboard in the back that shines towards the end.
"Outside" features the other half of the dynamic duo that includes Andrew the Only...Andresh the Flownly? Deshly Flankrew? Cheesy names aside, the two artists complement each other well. The instrumental accompaniment is alluring and haunting; it could even be an entry in the Ghouls N' Ghosts album series by Mega Ran and Richie Branson, if there was something to scream about. However, with someone used to the grind and given some free time, it can be a teensy bit terrifying to decide. Being taken out of one's comfort zone even more so.
If you want to hear more of these two talented artists working together you can check several holiday tunes they recorded together like "Lit 4 The Holidays" or "Grindin' 2 Give." However, "Run Away" from the third installment off the aforementioned series, featuring two hosts with the most to scare some ghouls and ghosts, is what drew me towards these two artists instead of listening to their advice. The real reason I wanted to take this detour was to promote another project they both are involved in, and that is The Enclave(WTF); they have a four song EP on Bandcamp.
"Cry For Me 2" is one that leaves me baffled at what to say, but it makes you think, even if you hadn't been in a relationship it still tugs at the heartstrings.
The hook in "Never Give Up" is persistent and uplifting like the verses. I like all of them, but this set stuck with me. "When you got heart and you're consistent/ put some ( not sure) and you miss it/ no one's ever going to get you off your game because you maintain grip with the foundation of persistence."
If the last song was the final boss, then "Mirror Talk" is the victory lap. The instrumental components and that refrain "I get E-X-P from adversity. Level Up 'cause it's still workin' out for me!" sound like they corroborate my theory. Take that, glass ceiling!